Knowing people have left birthday wishes on my Facebook and not wanting to leave people floating I re download the app to thank people in my well written and quiet manner. That was yesterday and this is today. I lost 1 hour and 30 minutes to the fucking app and just deleted it again. Ignorance is bliss and I’ve just wasted an hour and a half looking at things I don’t have, want or need, whilst watching a video I could watch on YouTube anyway. Someone moans about some food they got on the local page. Some autistic middle aged man who is an aspiring online Gamer, baits some Idiots who believed they were the victim of police inefficiency. The girl I fancy but can’t get to on this current level posts a night out and I wonder if she is that happy having to post everything she does at all times. No one is that happy. The only social media I allow myself is occasionally Instagram but mostly I’m disconnected now.
The week has gone by ok, 2nd week over and I know a small amount more then I did previously. Some days have been filled with me doing basic administrative work, some broken up with me doing nothing. It came to Friday and it one of those days again.
The manager gave me a task, which I did with little instruction. After I completed it, I gave the work back to them. Half an hour later I clocked the message from them to my colleague moaning about it being incomplete. They never actually said anything to me, and when I started to apologise about the work, they didn’t say anything to me. So now I know how my manager deals with things when they are not correct. They remain silent.
I’ve had little input so far from them about what they expect from me, and the company hasn’t given much outside of the initial training that took 2 days to complete. The jury is still out and it takes 6 months as a minimum to see a person as they are. But that incident has lit a fire under my ass again. I want my managers job, and I also want to be treated with more respect. But first I have to know everything, so I’ve started digging in the computer system and within a minute I’d found some old training manuals that were completely not mentioned at all by my colleague sitting next to me.
Maybe I’m the only person that likes to have some kind of schedule of things I should be learning. I find it odd that so many places just leave you to it, relying on the staff at the time. When it’s quiet now, I’ve got a 66 page manual I’m working through on the industry, and when that’s done I’ll study all the funds I’m supposed to be managing. And when that’s done, I’ll start on the rest in the company. The qualifications in the industry teach you a lot, but this job should allow me finally To turn up to study and I already know it all.
This is my second chance at a good career so I will do my best. I will earn the respect I deserve.
The Journey 